Hallo ihr alle da draussend...i think i booked in last night pretty much for nothing...because this morning we woke up at 0700 for commander's parade, then went for breakfast at 0800, then we played bridge until 1130 (book-out time) and then we had to go out and catch a bus down to Serangoon Gardens for the battalion Chinese New Year lunch...which wasn't terribly much, i'm afraid to say...played some games, got our 33rd BTACC graduation certificate, some mandarin oranges, and some food in our stomachs before we were released...Basically, we booked in last night to enjoy a night in the bunk i suppose...and to do close to nothing too...
Don't you just love idling? And i found out too, much to my chagrin, that when i need my 11B password to activate my OA account, i can't find it. Damnation...guess i'll just have to go to HQSA and face the music.
Oh...i got another 200 game while bowling today...214, to be precise...nothing very shiok la, just that i think the Ace is beginning to rev up quite nicely and i even got in a few snap balls...but its still in the overwhelming (overwhelmed?) minority that it reacts like that...
Sigh...am i thinking too much? Am i worthy of her love and affection? Am i worthy of her selfless giving and caring? Is this even what i think it to be - am i just deluding myself? I think sometimes i try to cover up what i lack materially...which i myself find disgustingly shallow...but i really want to cherish her and hold her whenever she's down, lend her an ear for her to pour out her woes to, give her a sanctuary where she can open her heart and know that no one will stab her during that moment of absolute total weakness...i'm afraid...i don't know if she should even wait for someone like me if we get together.
What do i do?
posted by quatscherei @ 21:24
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