Jahresrückblick 2005 Teil 4
Close to the stroke of midnight on this very special night, I am writing the chapter of my Jahreschronik which closes the year.In October, the maggots commissioned and entered our battalion line. There was a certain period of upheaval when best friend totally showed the side we all feared he’d show after commissioning. You can bet your ass that the new officers were super pissed off – as for us, it was more the ‘we told you so’ mentality. Sigh. I hope boss realizes his mistake. Sigh. It was difficult at first to stomach, but I think we’re more or less numb already. What a fool. But we assumed that with new blood, we could sit back and relax and well, laissez le bon temps rouler, but…we were so wrong.
Boss didn’t make it any easier by pouncing on the new officers as well as the old guard…he was so happy that now there were 6 people to share the work…which meant he just happily churned out a full FATEP training schedule…maggots man! Sigh. Fading away like fats, john, yu ru, pornoman or forest has become a near-impossible task. We also took ICCT – learning how to hurl ourselves upon hard surfaces was something I thought we’d never do again after OCS – but it was really quite good fun! Hahaha…I’m proud that the entire TA Battery passed on the first attempt!
October also saw me getting arrowed to be the secretary for the CO’s Conference…something which put my perception in the senior command in another light…it amazes me how they can spend 1 hour bickering over trivialities. It’s something they could really do without. I’m sure that you must have some agenda if you’re bringing up such issues during CO’s Conference…what, trying to make the other BCs sympathetic? Perhaps you could’ve done it better by going to S1 in private. I’m sure it would’ve saved a lot of time. Well. It’s insignificant because after 1 hour of bickering, nothing went into my minutes anyway.
And not to mention the 9 hours spent sitting in front of my computer at work! Goodness. Thank goodness for my very last DOO, which actually presented me with the opportunity to sort things out properly.
October was also a month where my blogging must’ve found a certain Renaissance period. Back were the intellectual, argumentative posts, along with a return of something which brought back a hint of emotional upheaval. I debated over religion, read Nabokov’s Lolita, and got quite affected over her decision to go for my junior batch’s commissioning ball.
I must explain myself, of course…basically, it’s something so special for us that we want to make it as memorable as possible for ourselves and our dates – expecting that they’d probably never go for another one. What I couldn’t stomach was that she decided to go, expected me to treat it as no big deal (which it fucking was to me,) told the organizers how to improve their comms ball (what, so mine was a failure?) and lastly…telling me that their ball was better. Well. I don’t have a problem with it being better, but I didn’t have to know. Sigh. I wonder if she know what she did…I felt so destroyed after that! My goodness.
…maybe she thinks I’m a loser to choose her
but I can’t seem to get her out of my mind
is it I’m just like a dummy – oh honey,
I’m not that outdated, just so underrated…
November wasn’t much better as well. I was finally freer on the weekends, but having no one to go out with was a serious drag. However, I felt the ORD mood crawling over me slowly…finally I began feeling like a civilian! Of course, that didn’t mean that my work attitude changed (well, not much), just that I felt that it was all going to be over in a flash. But I still got arrowed…sigh. In preparation for THUNDER WARRIOR (thank goodness I’m going for it) melvyn and I got caught up with the packing again…sigh. I don’t understand, however, why neither fats nor sven got recalled to help with the packing. And with S4 on course, I became the acting S4, running all the coordination again! I wonder why all this happens to me, even when I’m going to ORD, looking forward to becoming a civilian again.
…I don’t wanna be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
all I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking round rooms wondering what I gotta do
or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t wanna be anything other than me…
Luckily for all that ORD mood egging me on. Hahaha. But I did discover something. Having a right attitude is good, but maybe not as an NSF. It just opens the floodgates for more work. However, this is strictly personal. And I, for one, do insist on maintaining a right work attitude to work. It’s what you do, and it’s what you’ve been trained to reflect.
BUT!
I had fun in November too! Went drinking for the first time with isabelle…and although we really tried (we did hor?!) to, err, acquaint kah yee with all sorts of drinks (especially shots) she declined and declined and well. Perhaps some people do become jumpy around alcohol. I’m not there to judge anyone – especially not one of my best friends. I also met the OAC guys for some Ubin Slickin’ – if it can be called that. Somehow, the OAC folks haven’t changed much. They still love to talk trash, and have good fun at the same time. And it’s still true that I can’t out-cycle them. They’re just too godlike…hahaha…and it was certainly nice to pay a visit to our super juniors and well…share our experiences with them!
It’s kinda strange, cuz my batch never had much contact with the junior batch after our direct juniors (hope this doesn’t sound too complex) because most of us got carted off to OCS or to some leadership school (yes, the pedigree of OAC members is there.)
And yes, I flunked driving. I’d rather not talk about it here. And I admit to goofing up. I’ll do my darndest best to avoid it again. And for the record, I feel that luck doesn’t play 99%...it’s somewhat less, IMHO. But anyways.
And now, to December. Looking back on December, I can’t think of much to write about. It revolves around only a few things:
1. Going out to Acid Bar with my mates and drinking and getting high and all rowdy and talking trash. Now, friends, that is a night well spent! I never regretted being the Boss (although that has to change sooner or later…) And dudes, we so have to do it again.
2. The return of robin chua. My goodness. Being demanding is an understatement. That I’d rather he not be here is too.
3. The maggoty spec course. I detest them. Goodness. The standard of guys they’re producing from SISPEC nowadays! Ten of them wouldn’t make one FATA Spec right now. Yes, they’re that bad, and guess what – they’re too welfare-oriented! How on God’s green Earth could they have complained to RSM about tough training – I’m sorry, but I’m dispensing my duties with care! Bloody maggots.
4. Going window-shopping a lot with babycakes. Dude. Let’s BUY something next time. Jeez.
It’s strange, isn’t it? How you find that there’s less to write about the closer that particular happening was…I really don’t know why it functions that way. Hmmm.
And geboren:
xiaojun – 16.Oktober
forest – 16.Oktober
reuben – 1.November
ah cheng – 11.November
jason – 1.December
maybe – 18.December
That’s all I have…
And here’s wishing ihr alle da draussen a fruitful 2006! May all your desires come true…Well, legal ones, that is.
Excelsior!
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